When did my active drug addiction stop?
“Finally, I came to my senses when I reached the end of my rope."
When did the I come to my senses?
When my pain out-weighed the pleasure of using my drug of choice.
When I exhausted all my resources and there were no more enablers willing to bail me out.
When my life of addiction became so miserable that I refused to continue living that life of and addict. Than I was ready to do whatever it takes to break that addictive lifestyle.
Most people only begin to change for the better when they hit a crisis, a catastrophe or there is an intervention.
The pain becomes a doorway of hope.
Paul speaks of a sorrow that leads to repentance (to a change of mind).
2 Cor 7:8-11 If my letter made you uncomfortable, I'm not sorry. But since my letter did make you uncomfortable for a while, I was sorry. 9 But I'm happy now, not because I made you uncomfortable, but because the distress I caused you has led you to change the way you think and act. You were distressed in a godly way, so we haven't done you any harm. 10 In fact, to be distressed in a godly way causes people to change the way they think and act and leads them to be saved. No one can regret that. But the distress that the world causes brings only death. 11 When you became distressed in a godly way, look at how much devotion it caused you to have.
While I am comfortable in my journey to destruction why should I change? If there is no pain, why should I stop using drugs? If there are no negative consequences and as long as someone out there is always bailing me out why should I stop? So bottom line is that I have to be sick and tired of the life I am living. Pain is a powerful motivator. The addict will do anything to postpone the pain and crash. So the big question is how desperate am I for change?